一百天

今天是你的一百日，原諒我不能回去。一百天了，我還是沒能夢見你，為什麼不來找我？你不是最疼我嗎？婆婆，你在那裡好嗎？你知不知道這些日子，我過的很辛苦，我很想見你，很想听你的聲音，告訴我別怕。我長大了，煩的事也越來越多，我會學者勇敢面對。
上個星期我去找你了，你知不知道？Ah boy三號就要出國讀中醫了，家裡負擔會更重，沒關係，我會乖乖讀書，畢業了會幫忙家裡。你不要擔心，我知道你很疼我們三個。我會乖，你要保佑我們。ah hao長大了，也懂事了，什麼東西都會讓我，不會再像以前那麼壞蛋了，我真的很想你，每次想起你，我就想到你答應我等我畢業，怎麼不等了，想到你在醫院被很多管子插着，想到你為了等我從吉隆坡回來，努力撐著，想到你去世的那一刻，我奔向床位，拼命地叫醒你，棺材車裡，叫著你，你卻沒應我。親眼看見你被火化，心裡真的像有人拿著刀子刺我那麼痛。
表面越是堅強的人，心裡越是更多的不開心，我會學者好好照顧自己，你也是，要喝多點水，不要像以前一樣那麼不愛喝水，這次的考試成績全及格，不要擔心。四分拿了三點二六，雖然沒達到我的要求，可是我盡力了。
上個星期我們遇見姨婆，她長得很像你，她跟我說話時眼睛泛淚，我知道她也很想你。你要多多保佑她。好想在抱抱你，叫你一聲阿嫲。
外表開心，不一定真的開心。
愛玩，不一定花心。
每個人的心中都有一個盒子，藏著很多不開心的秘密，永遠只有自己能打開。

我們都長大了，你放心的走。

XOXO

It has been a long time I never update my blog.What's the reason?Hmm...It's not because I have nothing to update thou,maybe is just because too many things that occur in my life recently and I don't even know what to write?How I wish there's someone that actually can share my pain together,Grandma,r you there?Has been two months you never call me.
Yea,she passed away few months ago and I still cant accept the fact.She passed away so sudden,seriously so sudden...There goes my midterm,my assignments,my finals,all come in together.It actually helps to distract instead on crying all time for those sad things.I seriously wish I m that cold blooded sometimes cause I won't feel so pain if any sad stuff happen to me.Too bad that I m such an emotional creature.
Granny always tell me there's a lot of bad guy outside ask me not to easily believe in people.But I failed to do so.Should I say m just too stupid or too naive?Treating people too good like they r my family get hurt at last?!It's just like a routine of my life.Wtf.So glad to have you guys sometimes,I mean you guys

Although I have been dissapear for quite a long time but I have never forget you guys.I noe Audrey is back,so I m going to meet her maybe next weekend,I noe she's with elei all the time,I noe wen zhong going to taiwan soon,and i know charrise is busying..I duno what she's busying actually,LOL.I know minghui is having her stupid exam,that's y she felt so femoooo...And i just sent sinwei to airport last two days.C,i did stalk you guysssssss:P
I'm not going to believe anyone other than family and you guys onwards.bla bla bla...I always say so but I did the same shits all time.alahhhh....Cheers,Miss you guys,XOXO,a post for you guys and my grandma,gotta slp,bye.Oh yeah,meiyin khaiting I do missiu guys too.will meet you guys someday.very fast.

They always say I m a bad singer thou,damn.byeeee:D